days off, sleeping in and a new outfit for going out in makes life awesome.

Saturday should be an interesting day. i remember a year ago spending money on someone who was ungrateful, complaining and just an ugly soul. i hope she enjoys herself this year again at my expense. lol

i'm considering making the twitter public but then again, i love knowing bitches can't be knowing my bidness and are left twisting their saggy ass titties in the wind. it's awesome. it makes one wonder why some fucking tricks who say they're happy don't really seem to be so and they spend an awful lot of time worrying about people they claim to hate. hahahahaha oh, i love it. i revel in knowing that it's all a house of cards and the wind is blowing.

this week has been an emotional challenge but i'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. i can't wait for my days off so i can hit the gym in high gear, wash my new wheels (sidebar: SQUEE.) and get shit done around the house.

i've got big plans. big, awesome, ball rocking life changing plans. i can't wait.

i love that i can crank up the iPod, roll down the windows and drive to work with a gorgeous bay view. i get to work and get excited. i work with awesome people. i can't wait to see what life brings every day.

see? this is what happens when you don't act like a bitch ass trick and fuck over friends and backstab. you are rewarded with your Karma. a new amazing job, a new car and friends that continue to rock my socks and make my life full of love. my Karma has blessed me with real love beyond measure and true, lasting friendships with people who don't try to punk me out over a dude. people who don't use me as the means to an end, bitches who crow over their ill-gotten gains or spoils. now that's Karma. Karma really is golden. again, my life is shiny, bright, sunny and fucking better than certain people...i know i'm not sitting at home every night acting like uhhh...a drunk ass fool over a man. AHEM.

i'm off to drink my mocha coconut Frappucino, bask in my M@cbook that was a gift from an amazing human being and remember who i am, where i come from and love my entire life. the bad shit is a speed bump in the big, fun parking lot of life. some bitches are the big ass potholes next to the curb. right where their bitch asses belong...

day 1 of 3 days off. i ran errands and treated myself to lunch. i got Starbucks, i got to listen to The Civil Wars kick ass new CD Barton Hollow, i took a walk.

life is awesome. bitches can hate all they want. they can try as hard as they can to convince themselves of love, happiness and of being interesting. sadly, they aren't. desperate, sad, stupid, fat and ugly? definitely. i laugh, i honestly point and LAUGH.

a year ago, i was so in love i let a person who didn't deserve my friendship fool me into it. i thought that since she was his friend, she was my friend. i learned later- that's not true, never was true and she was a big, fat liar of epic proportions. i'm upset i wasted time, MONEY, energy and sympathy on a person of unsympathetic truth. she used me to gain closeness to the person i was in love with, was in love with me and whom i was happy with.

that's ok. i'm getting ready to take a huge, major, uplifting life step tomorrow. i will not only survive, i will TRIUMPH. i will end up higher, better and more happy than ever. a year ago was the opening of my heart to more love and happiness than i ever hoped could be my life. it was just the beginning- not an ending like i feared 6 months ago.

so take that, LRTCDD. what goes around, comes around. yes, yes Karma really is golden. my light shines brighter and more golden than any pathetic attempt you will ever gain or can ever pretend to hope for and strive towards. i will always be above you in all things.

i know the truth. unlike some people...i'm not afraid to be happy, love my life and accept my Karma. i know my light will forever shine.

days off are the best.

you gotta love the emotional roller coaster that life really end up being. new changes but i'm fucking excited. happy, happy, happy.

a year ago, i was the happiest girl in the world. i'm heartbroken but still happy. i never thought i'd still be here and not there and in love. oh well, i still choose happiness and gratitude. i haven't missed one minute of any of the amazing blessings.

6 months ago, a huge upheaval occured in my life. a year ago, my entire Universe shifted (for the better) and made me a new person.

i'm thankful. i'm grateful. i'm blessed.

i have days where i forget where i am, where i come from and where i am going. never for long, i don't falter in my path and i always end up right side up. The Universe provides and i remain a faithful believer in Karma and it's unerring patterns.

a few months ago, a person of questionable morals, ethics and virtue attempted to stomp me down by telling me their version of "truth". i was  told to get my life straight by a thing that not even a year before (this time exactly a year ago.) was in the same boat, of sorts, i had/have been in. how the worm turns. i will say this: i'm upward as always.

i don't need a job, car or man to feel successful, important, loved and needed. i have 2 of the 3 and i feel the same today as i did when the ill-given "truth" (ha!) was made.

nothing feels better than knowing that living well is the best revenge. being happy, strong, healthy, cute, fun and awesome is the best revenge. my heart hurts for decisions not made by me that affected my life and i'm learning to accept. acceptance is my lesson to learn this lifetime with patience. i have full confidence i will succeed.

with love, beauty, freedom and truth on my side, how can i not?

things were a lot different...

a year ago. i'm ok with all of it though. c'est la vie. my life is truly awesome. awe-inspiring and never fails to make me thank my lucky stars and The Universe.

a year ago i thought something was going to happen, work out, be awesome and change my life. it did even if it didn't last this time. je ne regret rien...

i regret nothing.

the weather is perfect, my new work sitch is kick ass and life is still movin' on up. i'm like The Jeffersons and shit. i have the most amazing, loving, caring, terrific family. there aren't enough superlatives to describe my friends, to describe their unconditional love. a year ago i was tricked into thinking that some things were one way but truly another. some shit ya gotta learn the hard way. i take the lesson to my heart and remember i'm the better person (in every fucking way) for it.

i love my life.

let me state it again: i love my life.

i thought about writing a blog about Karma and shit but then i realized...nah, i'll leave it in suspense.

what goes around, comes around.

i have my rough days, like everyone else, but goddamn do i LOVE my life. when the going gets rough; i count my blessings. i have too many to enumerate. certain heartaches i am starting to accept for the gift and lesson they are. i will never stop caring or missing. i still miss WP and he'll be dead 10 years in less than 2 wks. The Universe provides me with a wonderful life and i thank Goddess every single day for it. i'm moving on to a new, exciting, interesting chapter of my amazing life. it can only go up from here. the view is pretty fucking fantastic. i don't live a life of fear or anger or bitterness. i have what i want and need, for the most part, and my life kicks ass. it all comes from within, i don't need another person to try to fill in my holes. i am happy being me. i don't need a false sense of love and relationship to pretend i have what i don't.

listening to the new Foo & i hear so many turns of phrase that resonate with me. don't waste change your mind, you're wasting light. you and what army. one of these days. the list goes on while i spend hours plugged in making myself healthy and strong.

my favorite: "and when you said i couldn't give you enough...i started giving you up."

i sure did.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1Gno_JOxbI&sns=em

'nuff said.

*waves to her Super Deluxe lame stalkers*

nothing to see here. i'm getting it going, working it out and making life happen. i feel free lately. i'm always going to shine and be a better person. WWLD is a new life mantra. i miss my mother. i love my family. i have amazing friends. i am remembering how blessed i am and my life rocks.

hate on, haters. i use it to drive me forward and keep my light shining brighter, longer, harder and better. i can live with, learn from and take my Karma i might have coming. if i've earned it, i'll accept it. i know what i am not, who i am not and i know there's much i haven't ever done...

la la la laaaaaa sometimes i wonder if anyone even reads this stupid non-blog. hahaha well, i mean other than my recent ex boyfriend's current 'girlfriend' (using the term very loosely.) who twitter stalks me obsessively.


did i just say that aloud? oops. my bad.


it's late, i should be asleep but i'm too busy being awesome. that takes up a lot of time when i'm not being jobless, carless, spoiled and living at home for free, bashing people on the internet (ouch!) and laying in my bed watching TV. when i should be "getting my life straight."


cause you know, people who aren't really your friend actually can speak to not only what type of person you are but how you spend your time. which, for the record, isn't always documented in detail on twitter. i'm not that super deluxe fucking ass lame. 


stalk on, Super Deluxe Delusional. i'll delete this in a few days. i'm going to go to Austin, Tx first to not only see Dale Watson but see Dale Watson up close at The Continental Club. ahem. haters gonna hate. i also have several other groovy, enlightened, loving real people to spend my time with instead of Low Rent Trash Can Debbie Downers.