i heart irony.

really. truly. deeply. madly.

yup yup. i heart irony.

there is nothing better than family. i love my family. my dad, my sister and her kids are everything to me. i miss my mom, she was the glue that held all of us together when shit went down.

shit's going down and it ain't gonna be pretty or easy. we come out ahead because that is who we are and that's just what we do.

i love the people i choose to let into my life, family or friends. i'm thankful i have friends who are my family, by choice, by a need to belong, people who are my tribe.

i'll never give that or them up. i'll never back down and i'll never back out. i fight til the end. believe that shit.

you fuck with my people, you fuck with me. you don't want to fuck with me. really. you don't want to do it. i have love, faith and truth on my side. we will win and overcome.

my mother would rise from the grave if she could to make sure this fuckery does not stand. well, she's no longer here for it to be so. i will make sure it doesn't happen except on the side of us, the side of right.

believe that, you sonofabitch motherfucking asshole. trust.

that's right, get ready for the hater bitches. hahaha

i got a fucking NEW CAR. yep. not no shady ass financed, bullshit, roundabout, fake ass way of getting a new car car, either. i financed a fucking new car like a fucking grownup.

hate on, LRTCDD. haahahahaaaa!!!!!! i love my job, my life, my car, my real friends, my family and most important of all: myself.

i know i'm not gonna fake cry on a real friend's shoulder to use them to steal a man. ahem. i mean, what?

day 1 of 3 days off. i ran errands and treated myself to lunch. i got Starbucks, i got to listen to The Civil Wars kick ass new CD Barton Hollow, i took a walk.

life is awesome. bitches can hate all they want. they can try as hard as they can to convince themselves of love, happiness and of being interesting. sadly, they aren't. desperate, sad, stupid, fat and ugly? definitely. i laugh, i honestly point and LAUGH.

a year ago, i was so in love i let a person who didn't deserve my friendship fool me into it. i thought that since she was his friend, she was my friend. i learned later- that's not true, never was true and she was a big, fat liar of epic proportions. i'm upset i wasted time, MONEY, energy and sympathy on a person of unsympathetic truth. she used me to gain closeness to the person i was in love with, was in love with me and whom i was happy with.

that's ok. i'm getting ready to take a huge, major, uplifting life step tomorrow. i will not only survive, i will TRIUMPH. i will end up higher, better and more happy than ever. a year ago was the opening of my heart to more love and happiness than i ever hoped could be my life. it was just the beginning- not an ending like i feared 6 months ago.

so take that, LRTCDD. what goes around, comes around. yes, yes Karma really is golden. my light shines brighter and more golden than any pathetic attempt you will ever gain or can ever pretend to hope for and strive towards. i will always be above you in all things.

i know the truth. unlike some people...i'm not afraid to be happy, love my life and accept my Karma. i know my light will forever shine.

days off are the best.

you gotta love the emotional roller coaster that life really end up being. new changes but i'm fucking excited. happy, happy, happy.

a year ago, i was the happiest girl in the world. i'm heartbroken but still happy. i never thought i'd still be here and not there and in love. oh well, i still choose happiness and gratitude. i haven't missed one minute of any of the amazing blessings.

6 months ago, a huge upheaval occured in my life. a year ago, my entire Universe shifted (for the better) and made me a new person.

i'm thankful. i'm grateful. i'm blessed.

i have days where i forget where i am, where i come from and where i am going. never for long, i don't falter in my path and i always end up right side up. The Universe provides and i remain a faithful believer in Karma and it's unerring patterns.

a few months ago, a person of questionable morals, ethics and virtue attempted to stomp me down by telling me their version of "truth". i was  told to get my life straight by a thing that not even a year before (this time exactly a year ago.) was in the same boat, of sorts, i had/have been in. how the worm turns. i will say this: i'm upward as always.

i don't need a job, car or man to feel successful, important, loved and needed. i have 2 of the 3 and i feel the same today as i did when the ill-given "truth" (ha!) was made.

nothing feels better than knowing that living well is the best revenge. being happy, strong, healthy, cute, fun and awesome is the best revenge. my heart hurts for decisions not made by me that affected my life and i'm learning to accept. acceptance is my lesson to learn this lifetime with patience. i have full confidence i will succeed.

with love, beauty, freedom and truth on my side, how can i not?

things were a lot different...

a year ago. i'm ok with all of it though. c'est la vie. my life is truly awesome. awe-inspiring and never fails to make me thank my lucky stars and The Universe.

a year ago i thought something was going to happen, work out, be awesome and change my life. it did even if it didn't last this time. je ne regret rien...

i regret nothing.

the weather is perfect, my new work sitch is kick ass and life is still movin' on up. i'm like The Jeffersons and shit. i have the most amazing, loving, caring, terrific family. there aren't enough superlatives to describe my friends, to describe their unconditional love. a year ago i was tricked into thinking that some things were one way but truly another. some shit ya gotta learn the hard way. i take the lesson to my heart and remember i'm the better person (in every fucking way) for it.

i love my life.

let me state it again: i love my life.

i thought about writing a blog about Karma and shit but then i realized...nah, i'll leave it in suspense.

what goes around, comes around.

i have my rough days, like everyone else, but goddamn do i LOVE my life. when the going gets rough; i count my blessings. i have too many to enumerate. certain heartaches i am starting to accept for the gift and lesson they are. i will never stop caring or missing. i still miss WP and he'll be dead 10 years in less than 2 wks. The Universe provides me with a wonderful life and i thank Goddess every single day for it. i'm moving on to a new, exciting, interesting chapter of my amazing life. it can only go up from here. the view is pretty fucking fantastic. i don't live a life of fear or anger or bitterness. i have what i want and need, for the most part, and my life kicks ass. it all comes from within, i don't need another person to try to fill in my holes. i am happy being me. i don't need a false sense of love and relationship to pretend i have what i don't.

listening to the new Foo & i hear so many turns of phrase that resonate with me. don't waste change your mind, you're wasting light. you and what army. one of these days. the list goes on while i spend hours plugged in making myself healthy and strong.

my favorite: "and when you said i couldn't give you enough...i started giving you up."

i sure did.

*waves to her Super Deluxe lame stalkers*

nothing to see here. i'm getting it going, working it out and making life happen. i feel free lately. i'm always going to shine and be a better person. WWLD is a new life mantra. i miss my mother. i love my family. i have amazing friends. i am remembering how blessed i am and my life rocks.

hate on, haters. i use it to drive me forward and keep my light shining brighter, longer, harder and better. i can live with, learn from and take my Karma i might have coming. if i've earned it, i'll accept it. i know what i am not, who i am not and i know there's much i haven't ever done...