i am bowling for abortion access for lower income women, did you know that? women who might not have the means or funds to pay for a legal, medical procedure? well i am. i believe in going Balls Out for Abortion Access! i'm Striking Down Barriers!

i am doing an awesome Heathers themed Bowl-A-Thon for Lilith Fund. i'm going to be "Heather Duke" who was played by Shannen Doherty. i'm going to wear green, carry a copy of Moby Dick around and generally be a mega-bitch. why? because i can be! it's going to be VERY and i can't wait to participate and have some serious fun. any donation, in any amount is a raffle ticket entry for 2 amazing prizes. my friend Jenny Mathews is generously donating a piece of her AMAZING artwork (it'll be a surprise which one i picked). one will be some sort of jewelry piece by Lorigami (Heathers themed or green i'm sure) all handmade with love. i can't wait to send those out to my amazing donors. Jenny and Lori are friends who want to support me in my efforts to bring abortion access to all women. how awesome are they? go and buy their stuff, please. i mean, they are AMAZING LADIES THAT I LOVE.

if you donate anything- i'll be sending you a lovely, handmade personalized thank you card of me in my Heathers regalia. it'll be very. trust. i'm going Balls Out for it- big 80s style hair, makeup and outfit. i'm not the only one so check all of our pages out! we have an actual Veronica and a guy to be our JD. IT IS SO AWESOME.


i wrote a blog a few months back about how Lilith Fund changed my life. i fundraised almost $500 for them for my 40th birthday. well, i've since met Heather B. and she's even more amazing as a friend in real life. abortion bringin' ladies together for friendship. i got my very best friend, my Nerd Soul Mate Amy to do a Virtual Bowl-A-Thon in Las Vegas. i got my friend here in Corpus, Susan to join up with me.

if you have even $5 you will be helping a woman make the right choices for her and her life. i myself donated $45 & i worked hard for that money and it was worth it. i'm hoping to donate to all my friend's pages before the end of this shindig.

fundraising for an abortion access fund changed my life.

when Dr. Tiller was assassinated in May 2009, i had been on Twitter for about 7-8 months. i was already addicted and had been finding all sorts of really interesting tweeps. the news of his death hit Twitter and instantly i was enraged. i grew up pro-choice. my mother was a feminist and all about "your choice is your business. never let anyone decide how YOU feel." as a mother. she expressed horror at clinic bombing, assassination attempts (i vividly recall the previous shooting Dr. Tiller suffered from.) and general in your face bullshit from the "pro-life" movement.

i have never had an abortion. i was lucky, my mother had that sex talk young, i had no desire to go out and see what all the fuss was about and so i never put myself in a position to have unprotected sex. i've also never been sexually assaulted for which i am grateful every single day when i read stories of survivors. my mother is the reason i am who i am today. pro-choice, feisty, feminist and NEVER afraid to use my voice. especially that last one- using my voice. i use my voice to give voice to those who are afraid to use their own. fear, pain, suffering or even love keeps women from expressing themselves. using your voice means you are a troublemaker and a women who rocks the boat.

being on Twitter has changed my life, see previous blog about that whole story. Twitter brought out the dormant feminist activist, that feisty unafraid woman who tells it how i see it. i have tweeted some of the most admirable of women, fascinating ladies all of them. i could and probably should list them out, a feminist shout-out, a hollaback to all my favorites. just know, if i follow you- i fucking love your ass. famous, celebrity, Texan, comedian, old, young, mother, childfree, local, international. you are all fucking ball rocking amazing and awesome. yes, i love to use adjectives. sue me. at some point when i'm not lazy and packing for a whirlwind trip- i will call you all out one by one, name by name, woman and man.

i am coming up quick on a milestone birthday, the big and "dreaded" 40. i'm supposed to be grown-up or responsible or some shit like that. i decided that because i have so much i don't need or want anything for myself. i am blessed, grateful and better off than most. i decided, hey why don't i pick a "charity" and get motherfuckers to like donate and shit for it for me because i don't need gifts. my life is my gift.

i chose Lilith Fund. lilithfund.org is their website. I wanted something feminist, pro-choice, local and after reading about them- i just knew they were the ones. i made a page for Lilith Fund to fundraise off of and sent out a few tweets. i had decided on a goal of $400. i figured, hey 40 move it over one and you get 400. seemed a little lofty, a little inspirational so i picked it and made the page.

let me just say this... i have never in my whole fucking almost 40 years felt the feminist love like i have for this fundraiser. wow. WOW. i would get an email, burst into happy tears and my heart would feel like it was bursting out of my chest. see, my adjectives and cheesiness. i hit my goal about 2 weeks ago, thanks to a random (not anymore) tweep who saw a RT (retweet) and made the $50 donation that gave me that magic number. total strangers read my little page and supported my birthday wish.

this little fundraiser restored my hope for humanity. it changed my LIFE. i know now i am valued, loved, cared about and admired. people think i'm rad because i made a decision to give back and pay it forward. i feel like these women are like my family. i know i helped some woman make a choice that was best for her. all because i didn't want to wallow in being forty and my mom is dead.

thank you for donating to my birthday wish. thank you to every single person who dug deep in their pockets to make my heart happy. thank you to the National Network of Abortion Funds. thank you to Abortion Funds. most of all, thank you thank you thank you to those amazing women of Lilith Fund. you retweeted every tweet, cheered me on and made me feel like a rockstar. thank you for doing the work you do when i know some days you have no idea how you'll get out of bed and do it one more day.

thank you to my tweeps. you are all my fucking heroines. you are all my fucking favorite. i fucking love all of you. this is my love letter to my feminist and pro-choice tweeps. you make my heart beat love every single minute of my day in my life.

there isn't anything i love more than a Random Act of Kindness. the outpouring of support and give a shit for my Random Act of Kindness- wow. just fucking wow. thank you again.

xoxoxo

life is amazing. new changes, big changes and always moving ever forward. including new hair. forgive the crooked sunnies- it's harder than you think to snap a pic of yourself in a car. LOL

i'm also lazy and have no makeup on. i just wanted a quick pic of the awesome new hair in my awesome new car. 

i can't wait for the future. karma is awesome.

that's right, get ready for the hater bitches. hahaha

i got a fucking NEW CAR. yep. not no shady ass financed, bullshit, roundabout, fake ass way of getting a new car car, either. i financed a fucking new car like a fucking grownup.

hate on, LRTCDD. haahahahaaaa!!!!!! i love my job, my life, my car, my real friends, my family and most important of all: myself.

i know i'm not gonna fake cry on a real friend's shoulder to use them to steal a man. ahem. i mean, what?

day 1 of 3 days off. i ran errands and treated myself to lunch. i got Starbucks, i got to listen to The Civil Wars kick ass new CD Barton Hollow, i took a walk.

life is awesome. bitches can hate all they want. they can try as hard as they can to convince themselves of love, happiness and of being interesting. sadly, they aren't. desperate, sad, stupid, fat and ugly? definitely. i laugh, i honestly point and LAUGH.

a year ago, i was so in love i let a person who didn't deserve my friendship fool me into it. i thought that since she was his friend, she was my friend. i learned later- that's not true, never was true and she was a big, fat liar of epic proportions. i'm upset i wasted time, MONEY, energy and sympathy on a person of unsympathetic truth. she used me to gain closeness to the person i was in love with, was in love with me and whom i was happy with.

that's ok. i'm getting ready to take a huge, major, uplifting life step tomorrow. i will not only survive, i will TRIUMPH. i will end up higher, better and more happy than ever. a year ago was the opening of my heart to more love and happiness than i ever hoped could be my life. it was just the beginning- not an ending like i feared 6 months ago.

so take that, LRTCDD. what goes around, comes around. yes, yes Karma really is golden. my light shines brighter and more golden than any pathetic attempt you will ever gain or can ever pretend to hope for and strive towards. i will always be above you in all things.

i know the truth. unlike some people...i'm not afraid to be happy, love my life and accept my Karma. i know my light will forever shine.

days off are the best.

you gotta love the emotional roller coaster that life really end up being. new changes but i'm fucking excited. happy, happy, happy.

a year ago, i was the happiest girl in the world. i'm heartbroken but still happy. i never thought i'd still be here and not there and in love. oh well, i still choose happiness and gratitude. i haven't missed one minute of any of the amazing blessings.

things were a lot different...

a year ago. i'm ok with all of it though. c'est la vie. my life is truly awesome. awe-inspiring and never fails to make me thank my lucky stars and The Universe.

a year ago i thought something was going to happen, work out, be awesome and change my life. it did even if it didn't last this time. je ne regret rien...

i regret nothing.

the weather is perfect, my new work sitch is kick ass and life is still movin' on up. i'm like The Jeffersons and shit. i have the most amazing, loving, caring, terrific family. there aren't enough superlatives to describe my friends, to describe their unconditional love. a year ago i was tricked into thinking that some things were one way but truly another. some shit ya gotta learn the hard way. i take the lesson to my heart and remember i'm the better person (in every fucking way) for it.

i love my life.

let me state it again: i love my life.